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Dear (hans namn),

This is one of the toughest letters I've ever had to write.
Our relationship has, as you said, been in a grey area. We have not been lovers and we have not been friends. It's all been somewhat unclear. But one thing that has always been very clear are my feelings for you. What I feel for you, is unlike anything I have ever felt for anyone else. I guess you could call it "the first love".

It's been 8 months and I still haven't been able to get over you. I have tried and failed, many times. I've learned that you can't fight love. All I could do was hope that the circumstances would be kind enough to let us get together in September. Hope that you still felt something for me and that we could build a relationship on that.

But you can't choose who to fall in love with. You have obviously fallen in love with someone else and you shoudn't fight it. I don't dislike your new girlfriend. I don't think badly of her at all. I am sure she is a lovely person, you wouldn't have fallen in love with her if she wasn't. But I will never be able to spend time with you two. I am not that strong. I wish I could be a better person and tell you that I am happy for you and that this is'nt going to change anything, that we could be friends. I can't. Not when I have these feelings for you. I'm only human and to tell you the truth: I wish it would have been me.

You are one of the greatest guys I've ever met. You are funny, you are a true gentleman, you are easy to talk to and hang out with and you have the rare ability to always make people feel great in your company. I'm not going to continue to line up all the things I like about you. That's not important now. What is important is that I am no longer entitled to think of you as "mine". You are taken. It would be emotional suicide to spend time with you knowing that I can't touch you like I would like to.

This is extremly hard to do. I hate to lose you, but I can't see myself as your friend, so this has to be the end. If you find yourself single in the future, you know who to call. I'll be the first in the row. Until then,
bye (hans namn).


Var det bara en vild tonårsförälskelse eller var det äkta kärlek? Kan man älska någon efter bara fyra dagar? Kan det överhuvudtaget fungera mellan oss någonsin eller var det aldrig meningen att det skulle bli vi två? Och... vad vill han?